Thank God for the sunshine! (=
Ahhh... there's something so uplifting about waking up to a bright, cheerful morning with the sun's rays pouring into your apartment through curtains drawn wide open. I instantly felt better this morning, and although I've learnt through experience that counter-intuitively, when the sun shines it does NOT mean that it's nice and warm out there, that doesn't matter, for now. (= I am sitting at my desk listening to Mariah Carey's 1993 album "Music Box", feeling the warmth of the sunshine on my cheeks and thinking to myself "O what a beautiful morning, o what a beautiful day!" (=
It won't be too long now before I get to take a stroll in Hyde Park and have that picnic I've always wanted but always tak jadi! And it won't be too long before I go and see for myself if there really is a sakura tree outside Royal Albert Hall. (=
You know I've always thought there are two ways to miss something/someone... i.e. the 'sad' way and the 'happy' way'. At the moment I really miss home, in a 'happy' way. I don't know how I could even have entertained the idea of not going home at all in my third year? What was I even thinking?? I can't bear to be away from home for a year, let alone two! Another thing is that, the closer I come to completing my second year of studies here in London (and the more I realise how dead I am if I don't start pulling up my socks and doing some work!!!), the more I know how little I actually know of what I want to do after I graduate, my plans for work, etc. Sometimes I feel it's simply not right for a seemingly 'high-achiever' scholar to not have any specific goals or ambitions to work towards. To go through the motions everyday with as much motivation as a goldfish in its bowl. They say you should shoot for the moon, cos then even if you miss you'd land among the stars. At the moment I'm barely aiming for outside the stratosphere! Surely there is a difference between contentedness and apathy, and the line that separates the two is sure thin, in my case. That said, I commit my whole future into His hands; and I know that whatever I do plan or don't plan, things will ultimately come to pass as He wills it.
It won't be too long now before I get to take a stroll in Hyde Park and have that picnic I've always wanted but always tak jadi! And it won't be too long before I go and see for myself if there really is a sakura tree outside Royal Albert Hall. (=
You know I've always thought there are two ways to miss something/someone... i.e. the 'sad' way and the 'happy' way'. At the moment I really miss home, in a 'happy' way. I don't know how I could even have entertained the idea of not going home at all in my third year? What was I even thinking?? I can't bear to be away from home for a year, let alone two! Another thing is that, the closer I come to completing my second year of studies here in London (and the more I realise how dead I am if I don't start pulling up my socks and doing some work!!!), the more I know how little I actually know of what I want to do after I graduate, my plans for work, etc. Sometimes I feel it's simply not right for a seemingly 'high-achiever' scholar to not have any specific goals or ambitions to work towards. To go through the motions everyday with as much motivation as a goldfish in its bowl. They say you should shoot for the moon, cos then even if you miss you'd land among the stars. At the moment I'm barely aiming for outside the stratosphere! Surely there is a difference between contentedness and apathy, and the line that separates the two is sure thin, in my case. That said, I commit my whole future into His hands; and I know that whatever I do plan or don't plan, things will ultimately come to pass as He wills it.
Labels: heartmatters, thinkingoutloud
posted by may at 6:41 PM
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I was quite shocked reading this particular passage:
2 Thessalonians 4:11 (NIV)
11Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands, just as we told you, 12so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody.
How seemingly unglamorous, how unchurchlike, how quiet and discrete!
You can read round the verses yourself.. But yeah, I tried it out for a semester and it was a great experience. The major question for my consideration was : What is my "business"? And what do other parts of the Bible say to add light and dimension to how this is to be lived out? (Titus 2, etc)
I reckon the epistles rock. Bigtime.
I realise that Jesus didn't walk around being ra-ra about saving the world. He was just so secure and sure about what He was doing. He knew what His "business" was and He "minded" it so well!
When you've conquered the stratosphere, God will prolly set your eyes on the moon. And then on Mars and before long you wld have conquered the universe. LOL. I'm only aiming for earth. LOL.
thanks for sharing, debbie!
i guess my real struggle is that i feel i am not 'trying hard enough' to obtain that so-called spirit of excellence.. and having a whole bunch of high-achieving, big dreams-dreaming scholar friends only serves to make me feel more conscious of my complacency... lol
but of course, i know that my biggest ambition ought to be to honour Him and to live a godly life. (=
ooo btw thanks so much for going through all the hassle of applying for internships for me! (=
Cool!
You're welcome. Wasn't a hassle neway.
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