Home is where the heart is
...and no, it is not in the United Kingdom, but here in Malaysia.
It's 2 in the morning and I'm waiting for my hair to dry. It feels really good to be back, of course - I'm loving every single thing about home except maybe the weather. =) Had a buffet dinner at Mutiara KL just now after my whole family came to pick me up from the airport. Mom and dad still look the same (thankfully... Alan, you know what I mean...), Eric's lost tonnes of weight and has a really cool new hairdo and Levi's jeans - both look great on him, and Ning just looks... different. In a halter-neck top, her hand-me-down jeans (used to be mine), Bohemian-style bag and longer hair, I could hardly recognise her as the noisy, annoying little schoolgirl I bid goodbye to 9 months ago. Everyone says I've grown fairer, which is quite amazing cos I'm pretty sure I actually grew darker after the Barcelona trip - that means I must've been very very fair before that! Anyway, I'm so happy.. hahaha... now I'm at least as fair as Eric. Bluekk!!! =P
I'm now typing this on our old desktop PC as I can't connect to the Internet on my laptop. There's no one to talk to online, and I do miss the company of certain people I've been chatting with a lot lately. Today I thought I'd briefly address the issue of (hahaha do I sound like a high-school principal?) "writing about much too personal stuff on blogs". I'm doing this because I was recently told by two well-meaning friends that they are somewhat against it. Well here's my two cents worth: Firstly, I do not blog out my innermost feelings and conflicts as a way of solving my problems. Well, not directly, at least. I solve my problems whether or not I blog about them, and I certainly do not blog with the intention of seeking advice from readers as to how to solve my problems. As I've mentioned before, I removed the comments and even my tag-board during a certain period of time when I was very confused and troubled, because I did not want any feedback from anyone about the things I was writing about. So no, I am not trying to let the whole world know how depressed I am, nor am I trying to earn people's pity. Blogging, to me, is therapeutic, just like how playing sports or shopping may be for some other people. I'm sure you can identify with the feeling of sometimes just wanting to 'get it out of your system'. I do not see why it should be a problem for other people which way I choose to do so as long as I do not harm or disturb anyone. Secondly, what I write on my blog is my own business, I do not impose on anyone my opinions and I certainly do not force anyone to read what I write in my blog! In the same way that you can 'deafen' yourself to someone, you can also ignore what I write in my blog or even stop visiting my blog if you so choose! You may think, why not then have a password-protected journal or just keep a good-old-conventional diary? Well, if you must know, I do have a password-protected online journal whom noone has access to any longer. But I feel that a blog is a more 'multi-purpose' thing, if you will, in the sense that it's more than just a journal where you record events that happen in your life. It can be a way to keep in touch with friends, a way to share thoughts on my own quiet time which I feel could be a source of encouragement to my readers, even a tool for evangelism though I have not done that actively nor directly. So, instead of trying to regularly maintain and update both my blog and my online journal, I choose to just stick to my blog so that I can save time and effort! As simple as that.
I don't really know why I've written such a lengthy explanation on my 'blogging policies' but I guess I just don't want people to have the wrong impression that I cannot handle my own problems and am trying to run away from them by 'blogging them away'.
Today I was really touched by a very kind and caring gesture from a dear friend who specially wrote me a note (well, more like a short letter actually! lol) because she knew I had just gone through a break-up and wanted to encourage me but knew I didn't want to talk about it in person. *teary smile* Thanks Mel, your words struck every cord of my heart indeed - you're such a dear and truly a blessing from God to me. *hugs* =)
It's 2 in the morning and I'm waiting for my hair to dry. It feels really good to be back, of course - I'm loving every single thing about home except maybe the weather. =) Had a buffet dinner at Mutiara KL just now after my whole family came to pick me up from the airport. Mom and dad still look the same (thankfully... Alan, you know what I mean...), Eric's lost tonnes of weight and has a really cool new hairdo and Levi's jeans - both look great on him, and Ning just looks... different. In a halter-neck top, her hand-me-down jeans (used to be mine), Bohemian-style bag and longer hair, I could hardly recognise her as the noisy, annoying little schoolgirl I bid goodbye to 9 months ago. Everyone says I've grown fairer, which is quite amazing cos I'm pretty sure I actually grew darker after the Barcelona trip - that means I must've been very very fair before that! Anyway, I'm so happy.. hahaha... now I'm at least as fair as Eric. Bluekk!!! =P
I'm now typing this on our old desktop PC as I can't connect to the Internet on my laptop. There's no one to talk to online, and I do miss the company of certain people I've been chatting with a lot lately. Today I thought I'd briefly address the issue of (hahaha do I sound like a high-school principal?) "writing about much too personal stuff on blogs". I'm doing this because I was recently told by two well-meaning friends that they are somewhat against it. Well here's my two cents worth: Firstly, I do not blog out my innermost feelings and conflicts as a way of solving my problems. Well, not directly, at least. I solve my problems whether or not I blog about them, and I certainly do not blog with the intention of seeking advice from readers as to how to solve my problems. As I've mentioned before, I removed the comments and even my tag-board during a certain period of time when I was very confused and troubled, because I did not want any feedback from anyone about the things I was writing about. So no, I am not trying to let the whole world know how depressed I am, nor am I trying to earn people's pity. Blogging, to me, is therapeutic, just like how playing sports or shopping may be for some other people. I'm sure you can identify with the feeling of sometimes just wanting to 'get it out of your system'. I do not see why it should be a problem for other people which way I choose to do so as long as I do not harm or disturb anyone. Secondly, what I write on my blog is my own business, I do not impose on anyone my opinions and I certainly do not force anyone to read what I write in my blog! In the same way that you can 'deafen' yourself to someone, you can also ignore what I write in my blog or even stop visiting my blog if you so choose! You may think, why not then have a password-protected journal or just keep a good-old-conventional diary? Well, if you must know, I do have a password-protected online journal whom noone has access to any longer. But I feel that a blog is a more 'multi-purpose' thing, if you will, in the sense that it's more than just a journal where you record events that happen in your life. It can be a way to keep in touch with friends, a way to share thoughts on my own quiet time which I feel could be a source of encouragement to my readers, even a tool for evangelism though I have not done that actively nor directly. So, instead of trying to regularly maintain and update both my blog and my online journal, I choose to just stick to my blog so that I can save time and effort! As simple as that.
I don't really know why I've written such a lengthy explanation on my 'blogging policies' but I guess I just don't want people to have the wrong impression that I cannot handle my own problems and am trying to run away from them by 'blogging them away'.
Today I was really touched by a very kind and caring gesture from a dear friend who specially wrote me a note (well, more like a short letter actually! lol) because she knew I had just gone through a break-up and wanted to encourage me but knew I didn't want to talk about it in person. *teary smile* Thanks Mel, your words struck every cord of my heart indeed - you're such a dear and truly a blessing from God to me. *hugs* =)
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